Hehe.

Hihihi.

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (◠‿◠)

Happy holiday! Wishing safe journeys to all of you who’s balik kampung for this holiday. Berhati-hati di mana jua.

Selamat Hari Raya dear friends and family. Maaf zahir batin ¨`*:.☆

My mind just started wandering so I mentally writing my thoughts.

I tried to sleep. But my mind is too loud. So I stare around my room.

I love my room, really. Almost everything in here remind me of the HARDWORK..of working life.


There are reference books that lined up neatly on my study table, a pile of students folders containing reports I’ve yet to mark, bundles of PMR trials papers to analyse, etc.


I did advised myself it’s not good to bring work to home.

Work is neverending. But work also have due time. So yeah.


I looked around more. My big cushioned office chair that makes me feel like a boss, a large storage box containing only-me-knows what I’m storing, and big boring wardrobe which I still love because it hides my unfold clothes and other mess when I’m serabut, very well. I feel grateful. Alhamdulillah.


So I took a deep breath and close my eyes, trying to pujuk myself. I am able to afford my life because I’m working. It’s the field of work that I chose myself. Even it’s not all bright, comfy, bubbly environment (some people will understand). Still my childhood dream, only a bit different. Still on the expected road, but with some deviations.


I know I didn’t live in bubbles.

I know my road is not covered with rose petals.

I know there will be days that I can’t help but feel helpless.


Having said all this, no I am not quitting whatever I’m doing right now.

Yes I was feeling cranky before. And still is. Bad, bad mood, go away shuusssh!


Anyway thanks to my sister. Got her SMS a few seconds ago. She always ‘appeared’ at unexpected moment, just when I need someone spontaneous as her to make me feel good. Just by telling she’s bored. Because I can imagine her face, feeling bored. Most of all, I can imagine her without her laptop now. Well, she asked about my flight schedule for cuti Raya.


I’m so leaving  this town.

Well of course, it’s school holiday starting next week. I am a normal person that have to take a break after a while. Right. This is just another burnout that I experience in a period of stressful worklife.

Haha. Macamlah dah bertahun kerja! Exaggerate!


On a day like this, I have to admit that I have to surrender to some self-indulgence. Food feast yeah, but hardly know any places with good food here.


Anyway first thing first, go out sedut some fresh air (after heavy rain yezza)!

Sekejap sangat rasanya semester/penggal kedua ni, macam nak final dah. Sekarang Ujian Progresif 2, macam ujian pertengahan semester kedua kaedahnya. Semak-semak buku pelajar, jumpa lagi banyak benda-benda ‘pelik’ yang ditokok tambah. Sebagai cikgu..adeishh..*geleng kepala* bukan nak gelak sangat pun, nak TERgelak kot. Macam tadi, jaga exam, sambil semak latihan budak-budak ni. Nasib baik je tak LOL dalam suasana hening tu. Eyyyy, cikgu tak pernah ajar kamu jawab macam ni;

1. Di manakah sperma dan ovum dihasilkan?

Di atas bumi.

2. Apakah maksud persenyawaan?

Bernafas dengan hidung.

3. Di manakah tempat persenyawaan berlaku?

Di dalam hutan.

4. Huraikan perbezaan bentuk sperma dan ovum.
Sperma menyusukan anak manakala ovum mengambil  makanan  sendiri.

5. Persenyawaan bagi bunga berlaku dalam matahari yang memancar.

6. Selepas persenyawaan, ovari bunga akan berkembang menjadi bunga manakala ovul menjadi ulat.

7. Siapakah akan bertumbuh menjadi akar.

Hm. Hmm. Hmmmm.

Esok, berdebar jugak nak tengok apa budak-budak tu jawab untuk Percubaan PMR.

Across the water across the deep blue ocean, under the open sky;
I hear you in my dreams,
I hear your whisper across the sea,
I keep you with me in my heart,
You make it easier when life gets hard;

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this.

This was taken on the way back from school (work) on the first day of the prefects’ camp. Such a rush time because then will have to go back to school for next activities.

Since I start working, most of the time, I feel like time chases me. Like “Quick, quick, quick Lila! You’re writing too slow” kind-of-thing. Or like, the four minute deadline is because in four minutes, the bell will ring, this class is over and I’ll have to stop what I’m doing, get out and move on, etc. I don’t really know but, I think people noticed me always on the move, always in a rush (◠‿◠)

But there are always, quick moments, in split seconds while in the rush, it came over me.

My heart jumped and kinda paused, and I feel ♥

So again, this is a no-weekend-week. Kind of. But I will make sure to enjoy this camp to the fullest (◕‿-) Rushed back to school around 2.30 PM and the first briefing already begun at the school hall. Hung out a little while there and then followed a group to check the track for hiking today. Literally, we hiked the hills behind our school (I was going to say ‘mountain’ because it was named Gunung Endou). Donno lah. It was great, I’ll make a separate post about it later.

All set at the massive school field. Last time the tents were set up at the parking area.

The first day went smoothly even though later the kiddos have to sleep in the school hall because it is raining. Note: here, rainy days are always very windy the tents could ‘fly’.

Already had much fun and much LOLs in the 1st day. I don’t think I hate ice-breaking sessions much anymore (─‿‿─)

Am hoping for more adventures and fun until the end of the camp ♥

I don’t normally exaggerate, you know. But only people working, facing and  dealing with people for like half a day know how tiring it is at the end of the day. Whatmore when you deal with kids or teenagers. And we teachers, other than ‘climbing’  the stairs from block to block, building to building, move from class to class, plus all that extra screaming and shouting (LOL)..maybe..unimaginable to some people. It’s already energy-consuming to do our core business, that is teaching.

♥♥ But those busiest and craziest days were usually the happiest days, when the days were full with meaningful things.

Today I have a PMR extra class.  At the same time the Scouts have a cooking competition. Turns out everyone brought chicken as the main ingredient. So after the extra class was over, I headed to the usual meeting place somewhere far, far, far, faaaaaaaaar away from academic buildings and guess what? The moment I got there I was served with burned chicken. Literally, burned chicken. Surprisingly, it tasted so good (but quite salty) and are well-cooked ♥ The other group served seasoned chicken which was also tasty! Other than that..hmm..rejected, uncooked and hanchoooorr. Hehe.

So I got back from school today with smelly-smoked clothes and full stomach. Now I got stomachache. Geez. I’m not much of a food-judge/critic.

I better get going now to revise for tomorrow extra class (SPM).

Until next exaggeration and chicken story, take care (◕‿-)

♥ ♥ ♥ I don’t really see this coming, honestly. The first ♥ letter from him and the writing on the cake. I know I’m gonna get a (piece of) cake because I asked (hehee!). You don’t know but until you stuck at someplace like me, you’ll agree that great food is like a great INDULGENCE. And  Secret Recipe’s just right, hihi.

He delivered it to my door that night. Oh. Heart misses its beats. There’s a funny behind-story about the ♥ letter that he wrote ‘clumsily’. I can’t forget the slight stammers hidden by his nervous laughter, while he told that story. And why did I found that…cute? (✿◠‿◠)

I’ll just stop here. If I let myself to write more, it’ll be so cheesy you might go get a bucket and throw out afterwards ♥

Halaman Samarahan, my ‘kampung’ in Sarawak

The first time I felt homey after being posted over-the-sea. Here’s actually Kak Amot’s hometown where I met warm people and many many cute meows.

Photo was edited loooooong ago.

Waaaaaaaah. Was then the last time I went there?

*miss*

One morning I woke up and thought that “today’s going to be like yesterday or it’s ‘just another working day’, because now it’s past half-a-year and this new semester just—-tiring, mind-challenging and sleep-depriving. Then there’s these double rainbows I saw just before reaching school. And it’s ALWAYS double rainbows here in Bako. Beautiful they were.

So my brain cells were like, ‘ate’ the colours from the rainbows and my mind somehow felt full with positive charges.

It’s still grey but I think I see the clouds starting to clear up, the rain stopped and the clean cool breeze were simply……refreshing. Yosh. “I can handle TODAY, too, giving my best!”